I am questioning about others’ professional behaviour..
I am working hard not to mess up but i am still messing around..
Others blame at me while i am only trying hard to be professional..
Seeing others do not work as expected..
Shit happens..i gotta face it alone.
lately been busy because of my project is going to enter Beta release phase (at long last, yes) and the two primary of team members are on leave. WTF. Dengan kemampuan gw both skill and management yang kurang abis, gw dipaksa survive. Mampus dah… udah gw dalam keadaan boring sama kerjaan gw, eh sekarang malah ribet banget, tiap hari dimaki oknum orang2 aussie lg. Knp gw bilang oknum, karena emang seorang. Untung yang lain baik2, ya walaupun ada yang homo, ada yang sarcastic…wakakaka kurang ajar banget ya gw. Hah.. Makin ga semangat gw… Dah mana bentar lg liburan lg..and i just stick my ass in this island. Ya gw emang lagi males pulang ke Jakarta, i still remember my dad.
Kalo this boring thing doesnt get sorted out, bisa2 gw stress and resign nih…wakakaka..iya, cuman gw jadi punya plan resign (something new from me). Ya mo gmn lg, kalo resign bisa bikin hidup gw jadi colorful why not..let’s do that!
now i gotta back code…let’s make this thing sorted!!
i am sad because i see the one i really care is sad…such in a deep sadness..
i hope things will fix soon so i can see that cute smile again..
God please help my beloved one.
p.s.: i love u long time
..Feel like walking on a long road without no one to share how tired you are and how rough it is for you..I am bewildered..
…Boredom attack..I hate this! Feel like I wanna get the hell outta here, start a new life like when the first time I came here..no more screwing my own life.. God enlight my path..be with me..heal my wounds..
It’s 10.30..need to get outside and smoke a cigarrete..
Yippe..my SQL Server 2008 Manager is done…well not yet actually.. at least it can list databases, tables, columns, and the data within each table. I know it is wasted coz i can download the SQL Server Management Studio for free. Just wanna learn. I developed it using WFP…
Here it is..
Now gonna sleep..already 1:13…i must end up being dozy at the office..hehehe
…you are never there when i am down is undeniable.
Yep we’re slow dancing in the burning room, we’re going down..
Eventually you’ll gone and I am gonna find another you..
Updates:
- Still don’t reduce my cigarette consumption (bad…bad..bad..)
- Still learning more and more about the basic things (OOP, c#, design patterns)
- Still desperately have a strong desire about game console (the latest one is PSP Go…Danng.. Will i present myself a PSP Go on my upcoming Bday..aww masi lama :D)
- Still reading The Lost Symbol (yeay BlackBerry is mentioned there *norak*)
- Still love him
I wish all the best for Nigel tomorrow on the presentation of Benchmark 7. My team a year of hard work!!
Starving btw, gotta finish my job and go home!! ciao..
Yes completely disappointed!!
My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
he was offended
No filter in my head
Oh, what’s a girl to do..
I’m never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I’d rather be a mystery
Than he desert me..
by JM…
this song is so me at the moment
i really really regret…
i am sorry….. please talk to me….
i am begging you..
i will make it up…i will make it up…
it is okay if you take a distance forever as long as i am forgiven…
